Thursday, July 29, 2010

Nursing.


Application for school processed & approved...check.
Student loan approval...check.
Applications for scholarships sent...check.
Educational leave of absence granted...check.

32 days until I'm on my way to making $60K/year.
Anyone who knows me should begin to prepare themselves
for a complete lack of Linz for the next while.

This is honestly the only career I've ever truly wanted.
The only thing I've been passionate about for
as long as I can remember.

Can't wait.


Monday, July 26, 2010

this is so me.


I took this test a couple of years ago.
It's the Meyer's-Briggs Personality Test.
& it still rings so true.

Jung Test Results

Introverted (I) 58.82% Extroverted (E) 41.18%
Sensing (S) 50% Intuitive (N) 50%
Feeling (F) 61.54% Thinking (T) 38.46%
Perceiving (P) 52.5% Judging (J) 47.5%

Your type is: INFP

INFP - "Questor".
High capacity for caring. Emotional face to the world.
High sense of honor derived from internal values.
4.4% of total population.


Portrait of an INFP - Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving
(Introverted Feeling with Extraverted Intuition)

The Idealist

As an INFP, your primary mode of living is focused internally,
where you deal with things according to how you feel about them,
or how they fit into your personal value system.
Your secondary mode is external,
where you take things in primarily via your intuition.

INFPs, more than other iNtuitive Feeling types,
are focused on making the world a better place for people.
Their primary goal is to find out their meaning in life.
What is their purpose?
How can they best serve humanity in their lives?
They are idealists and perfectionists,
who drive themselves hard in their quest for achieving
the goals they have identified for themselves

INFPs are highly intuitive about people.
They rely heavily on their intuitions to guide them,
and use their discoveries to constantly search for value in life.
They are on a continuous mission to find
the truth and meaning underlying things.
Every encounter and every piece of knowledge
gained gets sifted through the INFP's value system,
and is evaluated to see if it has any potential
to help the INFP define or refine their own path in life.
The goal at the end of the path is always the same
- the INFP is driven to help people
and make the world a better place.

Generally thoughtful and considerate,
INFPs are good listeners and put people at ease.
Although they may be reserved in expressing emotion,
they have a very deep well of caring
and are genuinely interested in understanding people.
This sincerity is sensed by others,
making the INFP a valued friend and confidante.
An INFP can be quite warm with people he or she knows well.

INFPs do not like conflict, and go to great lengths to avoid it.
If they must face it, they will always approach it
from the perspective of their feelings.
In conflict situations, INFPs place little importance
on who is right and who is wrong.
They focus on the way that the conflict makes them feel,
and indeed don't really care whether or not they're right.
They don't want to feel badly.
This trait sometimes makes them appear irrational
and illogical in conflict situations.
On the other hand, INFPs make very good mediators,
and are typically good at solving other people's conflicts,
because they intuitively understand
people's perspectives and feelings,
and genuinely want to help them.

INFPs are flexible and laid-back,
until one of their values is violated.
In the face of their value system being threatened,
INFPs can become aggressive defenders,
fighting passionately for their cause.
When an INFP has adopted a project
or job which they're interested in,
it usually becomes a "cause" for them.
Although they are not detail-oriented individuals,
they will cover every possible detail with
determination and vigor when working for their "cause".

When it comes to the mundane details of life maintenance,
INFPs are typically completely unaware of such things.
They might go for long periods without noticing
a stain on the carpet,
but carefully and meticulously
brush a speck of dust off of their project booklet.

INFPs do not like to deal with hard facts and logic.
Their focus on their feelings and the Human Condition
makes it difficult for them to deal with impersonal judgment.
They don't understand or believe in
the validity of impersonal judgment,
which makes them naturally rather ineffective at using it.
Most INFPs will avoid impersonal analysis,
although some have developed this ability
and are able to be quite logical.
Under stress, it's not uncommon for INFPs to mis-use
hard logic in the heat of anger,
throwing out fact after (often inaccurate) fact
in an emotional outburst.

INFPs have very high standards and are perfectionists.
Consequently, they are usually hard on themselves,
and don't give themselves enough credit.
INFPs may have problems working on a project in a group,
because their standards are likely to be higher
than other members' of the group.
In group situations, they may have a "control" problem.
The INFP needs to work on balancing their high ideals
with the requirements of every day living.
Without resolving this conflict,
they will never be happy with themselves,
and they may become confused and paralyzed
about what to do with their lives.

INFPs are usually talented writers.
They may be awkard and uncomfortable with expressing
themselves verbally, but have a wonderful ability
to define and express
what they're feeling on paper.
INFPs also appear frequently in social service professions,
such as counselling or teaching.
They are at their best in situations where they're working
towards the public good, and in which
they don't need to use hard logic.

INFPs who function in their well-developed sides
can accomplish great and wonderful things,
which they will rarely give themselves credit for.
Some of the great, humanistic catalysts
in the world have been INFPs.

Jungian functional preference ordering:

Dominant: Introverted Feeling
Auxiliary: Extraverted Intuition
Tertiary: Introverted Sensing
Inferior: Extraverted Thinking

This is so me.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

the thought of seeing you right now...


makes me feel like throwing up.
i'll never understand why you're incapable of giving a fuck.
FYI: contrary to what you might believe,
people in your life are not simply disposable.

i have nothing left to say to you.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

cannot be undone.




"I want the sun to hit my face
through oak trees in the open lot
Forget about the things you want
Be thankful for what all you got
So long, I'm goin',
I'm goin' home."



"What's wrong, dear sister?
Did your world fall down?
Did men misuse you
and push you around?
Same story, dear
Year after year.
Pathetic men run.
Oh dear sister,
Trouble weights a ton.

Trouble in the air
Trouble all I see
Does anybody care?
This trouble's killin' me,
Oh it's killin' me."

Fuuuuuck...
Dan Auerbach blows my mind
and tugs on my heart strings
all at the same time.


Thursday, July 15, 2010


"Never let somebody be your priority
while you remain their option."
-Mark Twain

if only i had a passport...


If I had said passport, I would see these
two fucking phenomenal bands play
in Minneapolis on August 5th.




Monday, July 12, 2010

Sunday, July 11, 2010

weekend away.


I just got home from a weekend filled
with family, sunbathing, star-gazing &
swimming with the fishes.

I'm beat.
Too much sun perhaps?

I also did a lot of thinking.

Anyway, here's what I came up with:
I need to aim higher when it comes to relationships.
(all types of relationships)
I need to refrain from making excuses
for people who do nothing but let me down
time & time again.
I don't deserve to be a continuous afterthought.
That's that.


Oh, & my grandpa turned 80 on Saturday.




Friday, July 2, 2010

dirty little secret?


i care too much about myself to
let this happen again.