Off the radar.

Rough week.

Deep realizations,

a certain no-show to my party,

news of mortality x 2...

it's enough to make a person want to jump ship.

But instead I'm going to cling to the few but

truly amazing friendships that I have.

No dude has ever been there for me the way I need him to be.

My friends always have. & for that, I'm thankful.

I no longer want to spend my time searching

for something or someone that may not exist.

I no longer want to subconsciously & unintentionally

put people up on pedestals

- it's a long way to fall.

Explanation is not at all owed to those who give me nothing.

Off the radar I go.

EDIT: [side bar - the party was a fucking blast! i ♥ my friends]