Cravings.

I could reeeeally go for some of this right now.

Other random ramblings that have

nothing to do with ice cream:

I feel kinda lonesome today.

It's days like these where I miss being a kid

If only we knew then what we know now...

I miss having a friend I could call 24/7 to commiserate with.

I continue to have high hopes that

one day I'll find a dude

who shares my love for zombies, cuddles,

cats, watching movies all the time,

walks to nowhere, bike rides to everywhere,

weekend getaways, seeing bands we don't know

and star gazing.

[found this picture in a random google search...]

"Star Gazing" by Christian Arrecis

Sometimes.

Is it so wrong that there are days

in which I crave zero human contact?

paintballs and pensivity.

My first paintball battle wound.

Aaaaaaaand...

I've been feeling super pensive lately...

but don't I always?

I used to be so well-versed when it came to words...

I would write & type to my heart's content,

pouring out every emotion in my mind, my heart, & my bones.

But now when I make the attempt, it just doesn't flow.

I keep waiting for this 'writer's block' to pass however I'm starting to think

it may have some permanence.

Still playing the dating game, or as I like to call it -

the dating paradox.

Still playing the waiting game, 'cause nothing wants to stick.

However I'm definitely floating in a sea of contentment

by myself for the most part.

I function well on my own.

Although I must admit

every now & then

[more often than I'd like to admit]

I find myself longing for something

someone

that may not exist.

Or wanting to create a closeness with someone

I simply cannot have or should not have.

I've been in love enough times to count on one hand.

But I've only felt true heartbreak once in my life.

When the other loves dissipated it was a natural ending.

But not all endings occur naturally.

Sometimes they conclude with an unpredicted natural disaster.

Communities, cities, countries & populations

take years to rebuild afterwards.

I guess the same is true for matters of the heart...

But love is truly a battlefield

& this war had to happen.

So my heart will remain armed & ready for the next one.

When We Disappear

'The Crash'

from the upcoming graphic novel...

When We Disappear

by Aaron Rintoul

these and more incredible prints available at:

www.aaronrintoul.deviantart.com

This entry was far too candid so I deleted it...

I wonder if anyone was lucky enough to read it?

for real.

Sincerity

is the most

under-rated

personality trait

on Earth.

Hold fast.

"Hold fast to the human inside of you & you'll survive."

Jean Dominique Bauby

The Diving Bell & the Butterfly

yeah.

I fucking love Samiam.

They accurately describe me & my fucked-upedness.

On second thought.

I typed a huge blog entry entitled 'Open Letter to my Life' however instead of posting it I erased it all & am gonna post pictures instead 'cause that's just how I roll.

Madball is very intellectual.

The little bastard wouldn't let me make my bed.

Under attack.

Time to go try & be productive before going to work on no sleep.

feel the heat.

I wanna have these in my backyard.