hope

I wanna see this.

Lame indie hipster films are my guilty pleasure.

I need to take a step back & stop doing

such un-Lindsay-like things.

Perhaps when we don't feel like ourselves for awhile,

we do things quite unlike who we used to be

[even things we swore we'd never do]

with hopes to be catapulted back to who we once were.

Or admittedly, so we can FEEL something.

Something besides complete & absolute numbness.

Trying to evoke emotion in oneself:

not an easy feat.

I keep holding onto the hope that someone will do it for me.