Should old acquaintance be forgot, & never brought to mind...

happy new year.

(things are looking up)

stay tuned for a list of 'resolutions'...
although i make them all year round
& don't really require a calendar change
to fuel my motivation
to make positive changes in my life.

looking forward to some good times
with good friends tonight.
xo, 2010.
i'm glad you're almost "over".

"new" old music.

i love getting music recommendations...

i need to find the torrent for this:

this rad new dude i've been hanging out with
was kind enough to give me a flash drive of
Pixies live in Winnipeg & live in Saskatoon from '04.

rumor has it they're touring north america
sometime after the new year.
♥!!!!


i hadn't listened to them for a bit
but i still love these guys...

more of what i've been listening to lately,
new & old:








& an all-time fave:

merry xmas.

i'm carrying on my annual tradition
of working the night shift at the hospital
on christmas eve.

hope everyone has a rad xmas.
be thankful for what/who you have in your life.

i'm looking forward to a day of napping post night-shift,
goodie-nibbling and turkey-eating,
not to mention spending time with the fam.

nom nom nom.

date night?

making a comeback?

i'm a firm believer in this:

kar·ma

–noun

1.

Hinduism, Buddhism .
action, seen as bringing upon oneself inevitable results,
good or bad, either in this life or in a reincarnation:
in Hinduism one of the means of reaching Brahman.

2.

Theosophy .
the cosmic principle according to which each person
is rewarded or punished in one incarnation
according to that person's deeds in the previous incarnation.

3.

fate; destiny.

4.

the good or bad emanations felt to be generated
by someone or something.

& a partridge in a pear tree...

this is funny...

HAHAHA.

decades.

A little old man at the hospital today
told me the story of how he met his wife,
who he's been with now for over 60 years.
Tears welled up in his eyes
as he gushed about how
in love with her he still is.

It was a nice reminder that
there truly is love that endures decades.

(its probably obvious but i should probably
state that this picture is NOT of the patient.)

waiting.

I used to have a stronger voice.
I used to be able to write.
The words would flow freely, effortlessly, articulately...
I used to feel like I felt too much,
if that's even humanly possible.
But now I feel like the cat's got my tongue
& I can't seem to find the vocabulary
to describe how I'm feeling most days.

I feel like I'm in a constant state of waiting,
waiting to snap the fuck out of
this indescribably numb lull that
I've been in for the past year.

I admit,
I've become a tad cynical.
But I'm doing my best to get a handle on it.

I did the right thing last fall
when I walked away from a toxic,
abusive relationship.

Only since then,
that experience has caused me to
question the sincerity of
anyone new entering my life.

If anyone has any pointers on how to
dispel this seemingly reflexive response,
please share your secret with me.

this picture is from 6+ years ago...
funny how things change...
(& yet don't change at all).

he who forgets will be destined to remember.

cuddles or else!

my cat rules.

do it.

disheartening.

i hate watching my friends get their ♥s broken.

ephemeral.

i'm starting to feel as though

everything in life is fleeting:

love, friendship, connections of any kind.
no one has ever proved me otherwise.
i guess all we can do is hold what we have close to us
while we still have it.
because none of it will last forever.ects.

e·phem·er·al

–adjective

1.

lasting a very short time; short-lived; transitory:
the ephemeral joys of childhood.

2.

lasting but one day: an ephemeral flower.

–noun

3.

anything short-lived, as certain insects.

school/life update.

While my moods have their ups & downs,

school is seemingly always on the up & up.

I am loving Nursing,
& despite the occasional feeling of complete panic,
I finally feel like I'm doing what I *should* be doing.
It seems to be the glue that's holding
the rest of the parts of my life together as well.

Its during trying times such as these
that it becomes easy to see what & who is important
in the grand scheme of things.

This is every day:


Time to get back to hemopoiesis...