c.

"The best way out is always through."
- Robert Frost

sometimes reality needs to smack you in the face
so that you can learn to suck it up & carry on...

when someone you love is diagnosed with the big c,
you can't help but discover
& hold onto
some kind of new-found
appreciation for life...

but at the very same time,
you find yourself feeling
a whole new kind of sad;
a sad that
no words could ever begin
to scrape the surface of.
its your worst nightmare realized,
with an entirely new definition
that no amount of vocabulary in the world
could ever muster.

there are times that i wish i believed
in a higher power,
so that at least then perhaps the idea of death wouldn't seem
like nothing more than an abrupt ending
to some stunning yet incomplete novel that could have been
more well-written.