trying.

it's much easier said than done
to overcome fears based on negative past experiences.
but i'm tired of just treading water...
- i'm sapped of energy.
up until recently,
it was easier just to keep everyone at an arm's length...
but now i crave closeness,
& due to stepping outside of my comfort zone
(aka the hole i dug for myself)
all of these fears have resurfaced
& i don't feel like i have it all together anymore.

...to be continued.