lonely summer.

i miss school.
it was a nice distraction...

there's been a lot on my mind lately.
so much, that there are days that i think
my head will explode.

i wish i knew why so many people i know
are so codependent in their relationships.


i don't feel that this is a misconception at all
on my part,
since i've been very guilty of it in my own past.

but hindsight is 20/20,
& i'm able to recognize that now more than ever.

it's not a topic people want to discuss though.
i know i didn't when i was in that position.
it's easy to become defensive.

despite dealing with numerous stresses
in my life right now,
i'm happy to be able to say with confidence
that i'm completely self-assured.

i've never been more independent,
& while it can be trying at times
to say the least,
at the end of the day i know that
i'm okay.
& i will always be okay.

i no longer need to be needed
in order to feel worthy of love.

plus i've learned to
cherish my alone time...
you know,
when i can snack in bed
watching lame movies
only to notice the crumbs in my hair
the next morning...