wired.

work was fucking insane.

code blues generally result
in me being completely wired
& not being able to sleep after my shift.
this morning is definitely no exception.


went to the chiropractor after work
to get adjusted for the 4th time in a week.
him & i talked about
breaking necks,
how stupid smoking is,
death,
& cadavers.

what a weird day.

it's interesting how so much can change
yet still remain the same.

(i'm missing something
someone
who's already gone.)

i'm NOT missing:
- the angriest person i've ever known
who,
in the end,
through the utter hell he put me through,
ended up inadvertently
showing me that i deserve
soooooo much better.

thanks for that, double hater!

i've never felt safer than i do now.